On the train right now. Haven’t been on the train since high school. Wait never mind I think Adri and I went to Sac for my birthday one time in my early 20s I forgot about that. It’s changed so much. They don’t have the food cart anymore. Damn I was really going through it yesterday. Fuck I forgot my daily affirmations. Maybe I’ll have to make new ones now anyways. Hopefully I still have an opportunity to work this weekend. I can always take this opportunity to work on a new restaurant resume. So when I get back on Monday I can go be a pest at Outback. Haber que even if I just get to have some bonding time wt my Dad too might be nice. I’m sad about leaving my coffee at home but it might be a nice excuse to walk the dog in the morning and get a little cafecito. I know I’ll miss my bed but it’ll be that much more comfortable when I get back. I hope it’s just my period that has me all down in the dumps I don’t want to be like this anymore. It still hurts but I think I’m finally hitting reality so it’s going to sting but I just have to push forward. I’m not making room for someone who will actually show up. I need to make space in my heart and let all this go.