I’m glad I said how I feel. Even though I somewhat regret saying what I feel, I only regret it because I didn’t get the outcome I was hoping for. I can’t do this to myself again and again. I can’t be with people who don’t want commitment. I have a commitment to myself to respect myself, and the things I want. I can’t shrink myself down so someone else feels comfortable. The person I want to be with is someone who feels the same way. I can’t wait around for a maybe. This was hard but it wasn’t as hard as the last time and it will get easier. There’s been times where I haven’t liked people back, and that’s going to happen to me sometimes too. It’s hard because part of me doesn’t know if I’m being impatient, or if I’m putting myself in another situation where I’m wasting my time hoping for things to be what I want them to be. They are or they aren’t. You want to be with me or you don’t. I don’t want to be in a limbo or leading myself on, when people are telling me something, I can’t just hear what I want - or think that they’ll change their minds. I want certainty and security.