Time is flying. I can’t believe it’s already Thursday, IX days since I got fired. I’m meeting almost every daily goal I’ve had for myself since I found out. I have to continue to stay structured. Trying to accomplish tasks. I see what Chris is talking about. The novelty has worn off. Time drags at work. I’m always looking at the clock. Not so much today. I did insulation, put up drywall, etc. I feel like a little man after work hahaha but then I also realize how weak I am. I have very weak wrists. I applaud myself for even going out there and doing those things though because it’s fucking hard. I hate insulation it makes me itchy. I’m afraid of heights I guess lmao. I do like learning about this shit though. I’m into the dirt stuff like digging or filling in holes; but I hate hammering shit. I’m not very strong so I need help carrying everything. I need to do more stretches and try to get more upper body strength. I think I need a notepad to write down measurements. I’m going to wear my little jeans with the pocket for the pencil tomorrow. I get up early. I’ve been trying to tire myself out so that I don’t have time to think about things. I took home a savila today it looked all sad. I’m proud of myself I saw today that it will be 1 year of not drinking on the 29th. I need to continue to keep a positive mindset. As long as I keep working I’ll be okay. I’ve been working almost every day. Trying to keep my momentum going. It’s not all bad though I love the beauty of the mornings. A morning exclusive edition of the preserve. I wish I would’ve made sure to take pics of that tree before it fell. I need to make sure I get one of the barn before anything happens to it. I want to ask my dad to show me more about the camera I have I want to have a better understanding of I want to say it’s the amount of light that comes into the camera. I’ve been disappointed with the last couple of rolls I’ve had developed. I want to get a flash attachment. With the camera that I have and the film I was using 200/400 I needed perfect light conditions. Also there was a roll that was expired to be fair. I did love some of the shots that came out but I think I do need glasses because I’m not seeing the crisp clarity that I want. It’s like it’s slightly out of focus. Just areas where I want to grow. I was trying to organize my photography by camera but I think that just complicates things. I think the best thing to do is go by the years. I want to try printing one of my photos on a transparent slide and experimenting with I think it’s called cyanotype dye. Haber que I guess I’m dog sitting this weekend. I’m going to try to take as many pics as I can of the clothes so I can list them. I’ll weigh it as the same time too.
Last Saturday I felt so inspired. I needed that experience. I’m so proud of my friends. It’s so moving that people are driven enough to make these things happen. It was an honor meeting Patty and her giving us not only the tour of the building but the murals. The studio was like what I imagined for myself in that building that I love in Orosi. One day when I’m a rich man.