What a day yesterday was. Still can’t believe I locked my keys in my car before going into work. I lowkey think it was my karma for posting that pic of the flower I got from my date. I couldn’t sleep last night. I just kept thinking about how much I missed him. I know I shouldn’t feel guilty about anything because he’s the one who didn’t want to give me another chance. My heart just hurts. I thought I was ready to give someone else a chance. I think it’s just not the right fit. I don’t want to feel like I’m throwing away an opportunity because overall this guy is a gentleman. I didn’t think there was guys like that around still who pull out your chair for you and open your door. It was nice to see, but I just either I’m not ready or I don’t see myself with this man. I wonder if I’m looking for things to complain about because I really wish I was still seeing Z. I think I’m going to let this guy know that I don’t see us hanging out again. This may have just been a test of my communication skills and capacity to be honest with people without resorting to ghosting. It was really nice talking with Valeria last night I can’t believe we stayed up until 4 in the morning. Divine timing is crazy what are the odds that I would lock my keys in my car, that Valeria was working, and that my spare key is missing. I tryst the universe to provide me with what I need not what I want. If I haven’t met my person it’s because I’m still cooking lol I still need to grow in ways to attract the person I’m really looking to be with. I’m just going to continue my work. My personal development, I need to be the love of my life to invite that energy into my life. I have confidence that I’ll get there.