I’ve been growing so much in so many ways. I’ve been doing all of the things I’ve been saying I’m going to do. My house is coming along and turning into my home. I’ve been reconciling with people I love. Pushing myself to be my highest self. Trying to operate from a place of love always. I’m proud of who I’m becoming. It’s been hard I’ll say that. It’s not easy to face yourself every day and know you’re not where or who you want to be. It’s hard to try to be grateful and appreciative when things aren’t going your way. Every day I’ve been challenging myself to love myself and try to change the things I don’t like about myself. To have self-control. To understand what’s in my power to change, and utilize that power for my own greater good. To place myself in a position where I can see and acknowledge my accomplishments. I know I’m the best version of myself that I’ve ever been. I was disappointed with the way things happened with who I thought was the great love of my life. Maybe he is so far, I know he’s helped my heart grow so much. I’ve seen what I’m capable of. I can be soft, I can be vulnerable, forgiving, and loving. I’ll always be grateful to him for opening my heart in ways I didn’t think possible. What’s meant for me won’t miss me. I’m excited for my date tomorrow. I feel as though all of these opportunities for love are within my reach. I miss him, and I wish we had been mature enough to heal together and grow alongside one another. It didn’t turn out that way. I can’t close my heart again. Maybe this person is more aligned with who I’m trying to be now. A fresh start. No people to chime in and warp our opinions of one another. I am so full of love and light; I can’t wait around for someone who’s potentially blind to seeing my light. I radiate love, I just want reciprocity.