Had an amazing time camping. I can’t say that there weren’t times where I was slightly tempted to drink, but proud of myself that I didn’t. So grateful to be home. Excited for the next couple weeks. I have the Sequoias coming up this Thursday, and Yosemite next week. So thankful to live so close to such beautiful spaces. I was in awe at how lush and breathtaking The Avenue of the Giants was. Lucky to have Robert and Izzy in my life. We made so many magical memories. I loved the experience but it made me so grateful to have such a comfortable bed, such amazing people in my life, and happy to be alive sharing such wonderful experiences with them. I’m trying to keep myself busy. I’m hoping to heal from this heartbreak faster through nature submersion. Soak up the sun and try to keep my mind off him. I was hoping to potentially meet someone out there. I just want to be swept off my feet in love with someone. I care deeply for this person, but I need to accept the way things ended. I’ve been having trouble letting go and giving in to the Universe. Tarot keeps telling me I’m resisting the transition, I’m really trying. I’ve journaled, done cord-cutting, I’m not sure how else I’m supposed to move forward. I haven’t reached out, I haven’t even looked at his Instagram since May. I deactivated my personal instagram so I wouldn’t have to see the group chat. I unfollowed accounts that reminded me of him - except my girl friends. I try to redirect my mind whenever I’m thinking of him. I’ve maintained my sobriety; minus smoking socially. I’ve just been trying to focus on my personal development. Working towards the things I want in life. Utilizing my creative skills to paint, sew, and build my brand. Doing the shadow work to heal from my trauma wounds. I know I can’t undo years of bullshit in a matter of weeks. I’m a work in progress. I just have to keep moving forward. Grateful nonetheless for my life, my loved ones, and my progress thus far.