So tired right now. Woke up at 7, packed up all my shit, grabbed coffee, gas, and zip ties to put together my car lol. Made it home with 20 min to get ready for work. I hope my sleep schedule is fixed now though. I’m going to sleep like a rock tonight. I feel like I’m living on fumes and coffee. Caught up with Chris, Livy, and Robert on the way back down. I was tripping out on Robert’s friend. I see a lot of similarities between us. We both got our DUI’s around the same time, she got a lawyer and hers was reduced to a Wet & Reckless. They told me she’s still drinking and driving and now she’s in this toxic relationship with this very controlling person. I admit I was having a hard time this weekend I think because I took a break from my reading, writing, and healing work. I had an awesome time over there. Lots of laughter and bonding. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by so many people who love me. I’m grateful to be able to have free time, a car, a license, and be bodily able to go and do the things I did, and saw. I just can’t help but miss him. It’s hard though because I see Robert’s friend’s situation and reflecting on the path she’s on in comparison to me it’s jarring. I need some time but I know things ended for the best. If we hadn’t ended I would’ve never started this healing journey, I wouldn’t have reached out to the boys, and I wouldn’t have gone this weekend. Even having to take accountability and suffering the full consequences of my DUI - I’m grateful for all of it now. Not that she needs my pity, but I feel bad for her that she’s on this reckless path. It propels me to continue what I’m doing, and also be more appreciative for things not working out. Everything happens for a reason. I needed to do this healing work. Seeing what she’s done, and the ways she’s acting out of desperation and fear of being alone, highlights the way I was acting. I’m thankful to have willpower that I didn’t have. I still had an amazing time and didn’t feel the need to drink, or even tempted to. I’m proud of myself and how far I’ve come.