I’ve been feeling so strange lately

I can’t really put my finger on why

My head has been wandering through the past

I think going to Orosi and Livy’s House makes me think about things I’ve done

I think Robert and Amelia were talking about how I ignore people or how they say cut people off

Idk I think it might be something I do because I don’t want to deal with the arguments and conflict

I would rather just disassociate

I was just annoyed because I feel like no one concerns themselves with me unless it involves something that concerns them.

I miss my old self.

My confidence

I think this hair and this stupid shit has made me feel ugly

I miss my long hair

I miss skateboarding every day

I miss being surrounded by friends

fun

laughter

I miss laughing and fucking around

Nothing seems funny to me anymore and I don’t know why

I want to laugh so hard I can’t breathe

Idk if I’ve already seen such funny shit that now nothing’s funny to me idk