12/24/20

Laughing with Kacey about our trip to Cancun man what an embarrassment I was. Lmfao like next level embarrassment. Wow. Hahaha I deleted the more embarrassing shit this morning. We were laughing about how Amelia had been all stingy at her birthday dinner and she was all counting the change. Meanwhile I was letting it all hang out hahahaha especially on the booze cruise 😂 Livy knows what I mean! Getting all mad that they were hating on my outfit. Drinking the worm tequila. Smoking a crusty joint on the beach. Livy wiping her ass with $5 after they were trying to charge Amelia for a birthday shot when she had literally been all asleep on the bar. Jeorge getting all drunk with those two weird white guys on the beach and woke up soaking wet in his bed. He almost missed his excursion. Aaaaaaayyyayyyayyay. I’m one annoying girl.

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12/24/20

Still having pretty bad back, shoulder, and neck pain. My nose feels painfully dry. My throat is sore.I think I started showing symptoms on the 27/28 not sure what day that puts me at right now. I went to sleep on time but woke up early. I don’t remember having any dreams. I need to set daily goals for myself. I want to keep journaling regularly so as to recount this pandemic in a more valid way than just my memory; when let’s face it this is a time we’d just like to forget. Not sure if I mentioned yesterday that I received my, as Chris say, “clitoris check” hahahaha my stimulus check of $600. I woke up yesterday and the first thing I did was open up Twitter and I saw that Joe Biden was trying to tweet some optimistic bullshit and I responded “Shut up bitch, where’s my money you old fart?!” Then I checked my bank account and had to delete the tweet lmfao.

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12/24/20

I’m going back to my roots. I remember diving into music or my work and remembering why I’m not afraid of being alone. I’m in love with my photos, my clothes, myself and the people who I surround myself with. I am very blessed in so many ways. Everyone has been checking up on me. I appreciate what I have and the opportunities I have to continually grow. Let’s see if I make it that far. I know I have good genes but I think I’m dying I always think I’m dying. I hope I’m able to just build immunity.

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12/24/20

I’m grateful for Blondey reminding me about the importance of gratitude. I too want to focus on how I can be more of service to others. Finding better ways to communicate with others. I also need to realize my strengths. His video on Addiction is really great. Today he posted a photo celebrating his 4th year of sobriety. He said that while everyone’s journey is different one thing for certain that you will realize your own personal strength. I’ve been distracted from the things that I truly care about reading, writing, photography, fashion, gardening. I see things brighter for myself. I can actually see a future now. But, I feel like I have such shitty luck that who knows what could happen to me now that I have covid. I should have been safer. I think I had already been so luck aaaaaand now I have the lucky compass. But, I could just be all asshurt because I got blocked which I lowkey am buuuuut at the same time maybe I just got lucky. After all I am currently the owner of a lucky compass. I’m going to ship my film out. I wonder if they repair cameras I’m going to be so hurt if my Nikon EM is broken.

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