November 10, 2017

Had to put my phone in rice. I hope it works by tomorrow it would really fucking suck to have to buy a new phone

I'm all sad that I made enough money to go see Chicano Batman and the fucking tickets are sold out

Glad I got to hang out with the kids I missed them

we had a good time just wandering around doing nothing/singing all loud and horribly in the car

My sister got me this really cute beanie I can't wait to wear it!

I think my dad was lowkey asshurt that we left but I hadn't seen the kids in forever

anyways they're not leaving til Sunday so we still have time to chill

I haven't stopped listening to that playlist

especially The Oogum Boogum Song

It fills my heart with happiness

I've been wanting to go see a movie so badly!

Yesterday I even contemplated watching Back to the Future at the Fox theatre by myself

But I looked like shit so I had an awesome time with Kacey and Paul, Kari Marc and Markesha came too

Having dinner plans makes me remember that I'm an adult

Then when we actually get together I realize how immature we all are and it makes me feel young again

 

Chicano Batman vs. Saturday Night Fever

Next Wednesday I can either:

go watch Saturday Night Fever wt someone I like who never even called me like he was supposed to and said he would

or go by myself to go see Chicano Batman

I reeeeeaallly really like Chicano Batman and I don't even know if I'll like that movie and I don't know if I still like that guy

lmao I do but I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only one reaching out

maybe there's too much distance

Saturday Night Fever would be cheaper though

tickets are only $5 and it's right here in Visalia

Maybe I'll try to see who's down to carpool to Chicano Batman

I'm at such a weird place today

im not sure what I want for myself in life rn

sometimes I question if I'm going after the right things

the key word is 'right' 

wtf does that even mean

I like this guy who is probably not even into me  

more than likely not into me

he is probably too young for me

i don't care about any of that though

i just know I like the way I feel when he's around

i never know how to express myself

one of my best friends is all mad at me

I just thought I was being funny

a lot of times the things I think are funny

are apparently not

i need to work on my character

current questions of life

Am I wasting my time trying to do the whole clothing thing? 

is that really my passion if I'm wondering if I'm wasting my time? 

i keep wondering when the boy of my dreams is going to come along; what if he's already in my life and I've been too blind to see

would I just be happier single not ever talking to anyone? I would never have to get out of my comfort zone or feel sad when I don't get a response but is one really the loneliest number?  

Am i still number one? 

lmao okay that last one was a joke

why do i always try to make a joke of everything? 

oh yeah cause I'm a joke