Chicano Batman vs. Saturday Night Fever

Next Wednesday I can either:

go watch Saturday Night Fever wt someone I like who never even called me like he was supposed to and said he would

or go by myself to go see Chicano Batman

I reeeeeaallly really like Chicano Batman and I don't even know if I'll like that movie and I don't know if I still like that guy

lmao I do but I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only one reaching out

maybe there's too much distance

Saturday Night Fever would be cheaper though

tickets are only $5 and it's right here in Visalia

Maybe I'll try to see who's down to carpool to Chicano Batman

I'm at such a weird place today

im not sure what I want for myself in life rn

sometimes I question if I'm going after the right things

the key word is 'right' 

wtf does that even mean

I like this guy who is probably not even into me  

more than likely not into me

he is probably too young for me

i don't care about any of that though

i just know I like the way I feel when he's around

i never know how to express myself

one of my best friends is all mad at me

I just thought I was being funny

a lot of times the things I think are funny

are apparently not

i need to work on my character

current questions of life

Am I wasting my time trying to do the whole clothing thing? 

is that really my passion if I'm wondering if I'm wasting my time? 

i keep wondering when the boy of my dreams is going to come along; what if he's already in my life and I've been too blind to see

would I just be happier single not ever talking to anyone? I would never have to get out of my comfort zone or feel sad when I don't get a response but is one really the loneliest number?  

Am i still number one? 

lmao okay that last one was a joke

why do i always try to make a joke of everything? 

oh yeah cause I'm a joke

Yesterday's Screenshots

I sent this one to the group chat wt Kacey and Kristine say "Us when we're on a trip" 

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I saw this and I was like wtf happened to my South Park pajamas

like i don't even remember the last time I saw them

i had those things forever like i fersure got them when I was in jr high

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I lowkey miss my long hair

November 2, 2017

Lmao just got off the phone with Kacey, after being on the phone with Robert, Brian, & my sister

I'm too much sometimes

I guess I'm going to the wedding, but we'll see what ends up happening ultimately

Can't believe I'm applying to CSU's already

Life has been so eventful lately

Today was chill

Stayed at home pretty much all day

Thanksgiving Blend is giving me life - It's my favorite coffee

I did a pour over with some honey and milk

I was alive again

I laughed so hard today at Walmart when I was on the phone with Brian

he said he loves Rattatoui that movie with the rat idk if I'm spelling it right and I guess I could check but I don't care enough

Anyways he said that and I had just finished talking to some guy who approached me asking if I wanted to buy these shitty little bracelets while I was putting my groceries away

Brian made his comment

Then I responded with "Did you see that fucking costume"

At the same time the cart guy was coming by and he didn't know I was on the phone and he responded "Which one?" Then I looked up wt my headphones and he was like "Oh sorry"

It took all my strength to not die of laughter cause he was still around

Anyways I have to get going I'm going to Paul's wt Kacey

Chicken and Wine

"Don't you know I love being a cockblock? I could really use some chicken"

Hahaha I'm too much

BYE

 

If it wasn't for Senor Rangel I wouldn't even know some of my favorite artists  

I've been listening to Chicano Batman non-stop

i really really hope I get to see them at Strummers /: 

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July 4, 2017

I've grown so much as a person in such a short amount of time  

I know people don't approve of my lifestyle  

but it's cool cause  

my life is for me to live

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freedom is free

i need to remember to free myself from the weight of the world