I can't believe how long I've had some of my journals that music book is hella old like I used to write down songs to download on limewire or frost wire  

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Tony probably thinks I'm a crybaby cause of that time he put my pillows on the floor and I got all hurt  

but it was just cause I had had it already lmao

i think that was after I found my pants refolded in my drawer  

It's so crazy I used to see my siblings every day

lmfao Andrea used to always eat my lipgloss hahaha sick ass

Johnny was always a turd hahahaha I love simple Johnny 

Jacob's my little turd

oh man the film pics I have of him are classic

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it used to be 40z n bluntz

now it's wine weed  

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Claire and I had an awesome day

she said she's coming tomorrow we'll see what happens

october 10, 2017

why does it still bother me that you guys talk

even though it was me who chose to leave

i couldn't take any more of the lies

is the pain worth the soft kisses upon my thighs

the caressing sighs  

no

no

dont do this to yourself

youre done

i keep thinking he wasn't the one

yet  

I keep thinking  

thinking only of you

wishing that deep down inside my dark tunnel of a heart

that one day you'd see that I want you forever

i want you for always

i want you through all days

good

bad

because even though we were fucked up

you were the best relationship I've ever had