05/14/26

I can’t believe we’re already almost half way through the month. I know I say this so often, but I’m so proud of myself for how much I’ve grown in the past year. This time last year I was a total heart-broken mess. I was resilient. I was writing, painting, sewing; just honestly expressing myself by way of craft. I miss writing though. I’m proud of myself for working so hard to be where I am too. To be able to ask for help, receive help, and struggle for a bit so I can better appreciate the things I have in my life. Especially the people. I can do anything I push myself to do. I will figure things out. Work at the school hasn’t been bad. I’m just grateful to have work.

Even though I’m not working officially I feel so busy lately. Always trying to find something to do or somewhere to work. I need to finish my application to the teaching credential program. I’m grateful to my family for giving me an opportunity to redeem myself. I want to be able to help with my Tia as much as I can. Glad I finally reached out to my amigas too. I have to start utilizing my resources instead of isolating. Idk why I’m like that I’m just so sensitive and chillona. When I’m all crying a river Jordan I just want to be alone. I feel like lately I’ve been even more of a crybaby. I told Valeria how on Sunday I was just over life and contemplated just disappearing into the Sequoias like the guy in Into The Wild gave up society and took off to Alaska…but then I remembered how the movie ended and I was like well damn maybe I’ll just stay home and cry my eyes out instead. I’m in a better headspace now I’m just trying to be grateful and know that I’m doing my best every day. That’s all I can do and just lean on my loved ones when I need to. I’m glad I talked to Amelia too she always knows how to reel me in when I get carried away. Hopefully I find something steady soon!