Que te digo. Being here always makes me wonder where I’d be at in life. I get so mad at myself for not seeing the opportunities my Dad and Bridget were trying to offer me. I didn’t have structure or any real rules and I thought that’s how I wanted things to be. I didn’t want to move over here because I’d miss my Tia Lupe too much, and because I wouldn’t be able to get away with mamadas the way that I was able to at home. I’m trying to live my life in a more structured way because I know that when I’m structured I’m more successful. I see how successful my siblings are and I’m so proud of them; I know that my Dad and Bridget just wanted to same for us and tried to show us how we could be successful and I don’t know why I just thought things would fall into place somehow. I need to do better for myself. Find a path and stick to it. Actually follow through though. I need to make things happen for myself.
