Nervous about my trip to France. Excited but I think other’s doubt has gotten to me to some degree. I’ve been reading Moby Dick. I really like it so far, I’ve been reading a chapter or two a day and I’m close to pg 200. I’m sad I’m not fluent in French yet. I’m trying to stay on task with my little to-do list cycle shit! Things are going well so far. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy. This morning I was thinking about how I felt conflicted about this shit that Tyler had retweeted. He was talking about how his bank account or some shit trying to put someone else down in the crowd. All that person had to say was “Yeah you have all that in your bank account but you’re still alone” and they would’ve hella killed him. Then I thought back to that post yesterday where he was trying to find something to do. It’s like you can have all this money, fame, and still not have shit to do on Halloween. I think the key to keeping loneliness away is staying busy. When you’re mind and body are busy, you don’t have time to think about things. Memories are great, they bring warmth and smiles, but they bring sadness too because you remember that they were long ago and might never happen again. I also told myself that every time I saw myself in any reflection I would work on my posture as that would be true reflection and change. lol.