My Dad is

Coming into town I need to finish painting the porch  

also I need to re paint the restroom use white paint in the rr and possibly attempt mowing the lawn again

havent done that since I lived at my grandma's house

have to make Zuzzeth a playlist

Under the Bridge

Yesterday when I was singing I felt like the birds were singing along

im here wt my favorite tree

i got to see a new side of it since the creek dried

im sad I didn't visit it enough while it was here

in a way I'm happy because my tree gets a break and is able to root itself in the dirt better w/o the sand loosing its way too much wt the current

because the creek dried I get to see what happened to that branch

i could've sworn it had another branch and o couldn't remember but now that the creek has dried I see it there and know I was right

when the water's gone it makes me sad but I wonder if the tree appreciates it all the more when it's there it's roots are so intricate that I'm sure its stored the goods the water brought it

i want to sing here but I don't want anyone to hear me

its not the same as being under the bridge the acoustics are better and the likelihood of anyone hearing me and me getting embarrassed are way smaller

My feelings

Are a tide  

One second I'm on a high  

easing into an easy coast

i start to come down as I push down to my soul faster, faster, faster

im at the bottom

the pressure sinks alongside my heart  

everything's coming down wt me  

then I float

From the bottom up

i reach the top

i gasp for air  

frenzied calm

then sail  

my body swaying until the pressure rises 

as the tide of my happy heart increases the current

what is the speed of your current

can you make me waterfall

are you chasing waterfalls

can you be there when the creek dries

will you flourish me wt what I lack

and the cycle repeats

 

Friend zoned

I'm so hurt and embarrassed. I'm never sweet or cutesy wt anyone I don't even like to put myelf out there like how I did this time. No one's ever brought that out of me I guess I just thought this was different he made me want to be different I'm tired of playing games

 

i hid this cause I posted it and got embarrassed

This little ugly plant

I hoe it down all the time 

Cut it out of the dirt from the root  

seizing growth  

it isn't until I recognize it  

It flowers so beautifully out here in the wild

i wouldn't know

i don't let this little ugly plant grow

Into the beauty that it itself could mold 

When my Tia Lupe got sick I brought over the pictures she had given to me to help her remember or see if she would talk again. Her sister Hilda saw this and asked if she could have it. Her husband who had passed away was in it. I told her she would just have to let me take a picture of it then it was hers

Jan 16, 2016

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Lost Time

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Ayana is one of the funniest people I've ever met. She brings out the comedian in everyone she is a big part of my late teens early 20's lmfao that's so weird saying. Not that she was a big part but the fact that I can say late teens early 20s or I feel like I can cause next month I'm coming up on my mid 20s. She reminds me of when I lived at my grandma's since that's when we spent the most time together. 

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After a visit at my Grandma's house I remember it being sad. I sent this to Señor Rangel