Birthday Girls

Leecha's birthday is the 18th and mine is the 19th! It made me so sad that someone as wonderful as her was going to have to spend her birthday at work so I already had plans to make her dinner, but then I got her text that her daughter was in the hospital, so I decided to put whatever groceries back and get her flowers and head over there! The next day was her birthday and I was gonna go back to the hospital in Fresno with the dinner I had made her, but her sister Sylvia had already planned a small get together for her and Leecha really wanted me to go so I went! I brought the meal I'd prepared for her (tortellini) and my telescope so Leecha could see the Moon up close for the first time since we both have a fascination with it! Everyone said me bring the telescope for her was the best gift of them all<3 I'm glad that she had such an amazing time despite her situation, and even happier to be the first to show her the moon for her 49th birthday<3

Sunrise On My Way Home

From one of the best birthday's I've had in a long ass time! Sara made me Spaghetti and got me a beautiful cheesecake! I had 3 plates of spaghetti, 3 slices of cheesecake, and 3 shots of Crown Royal Apple! She's so awesome<3

Maybe

What's crazy is that over the last couple days I've been hella wishing I had that person back in my life and thinking "man if I had him back in my life I'd do whatever to keep him cause I never want to long for anyone this way ever again and I just want to show him how much he really meant to me all along" but honesty that lame ass birthday text just goes to show how seriously one-sided our relationship even was like really I got that lame ass text that didn't even say happy birthday when for his birthday I went out of my way to try and make him feel special and all he could do on my birthday is make me feel like a rebound cause things probably either didn't work out with that girl or aren't working out and he thinks that I'm always gonna be there whenever he wants fuck that if people who I don't even really let into my world the way I let him in can see what a great person I am and he couldn't and still doesn't then he doesn't deserve to be in my life not to sound like a cocky little bitch but I get hit on pretty often I got hit on at least 5 times today and it wasn't because people thought I owned a restaurant and thought I had money it's cause they can see how special I am I'm just sorry it took me that long to realize it myself

Desiigner - Timmy Turner

First time listening to him; I dig it

Childish Gambino - Sweatpants ft. Problem

Don't be mad cause I'm doin me better than you doin' you

Blaque Ivory - As If

Story of my life right now! I hella didn't know what to do about him texting me yesterday, but after talking to Leecha I'm like you know what I always just do whatever I want regardless of everyone's advice but I just need to listen to everyone tienen razon; assholes don't change and he hasn't even proven that he has he's just trying to use me as a rebound lmao as if