Family pics!

Amelia and I  

Putting my shoes back on after my run down the mountain! I had been hella scared! 

I ended up trading my snowboard for skis and only went down bunny hill twice with them but I felt bad because my Tio paid for my lift ticket so I didn't want to waste his money by not going at least once! 

I made it right on time (the resort closes at 4)  On the way up I was hella scared I get afraid of heights sometimes and this was definitely one of those times! Luckily these two cool guys were looking out for me down the mountain!

Amelia, Robert, and I  

putting down for my town lmao  

Group picture! The whole gang right before we left! 

Me snowboarding!

Or at least trying to lol! Mostly just falling on my ass! 

This was after my second time going down bunny hill! I actually did pretty good! My Tia even said "I should have taken a video of you you did so good!" My third time trying to go down I fell hella hard on my tailbone I'm still feeling it today!

This helmet hella gave me a double chin! 

I look ridiculous but at least I was warm! 

Shaver Lake

Was able to capture some nice pictures of Shaver Lake on the way up! 

This one's one that Robert Airdropped to me lol my first time using that feature it's pretty cool! Technology is awesome! 

Scenic shit

On the way up

I think this one's my favorite

Lmao Robert and V were getting all sick on the way up and Amelia kept telling them to roll the window up hahaha

En route to China Peak

China Peak

Wore Robert's old snow pants! I tried them on the night before! 

The sky before we headed out for China Peak! 

Mallrats

Tried on Marc Jacobs scandal lipstick cause I'm scandalous  

Amelia was talking about social injustice and conditioned racism the whole way there then uses the word 'tranny' lmao Izzy and I were dying to claiming to her that that word is offensive and as derogatory as the other shit she was talking about  

Bought Marc Jacobs Daisy Dot  

Izzy and I did a spray and run at Sephora

When I told him what perfume I bought I said "Dot" and he said jokingly, "Oh, dog?" Lmfao he's so funny I swear!

Davorn's!

Instead of the snow day two because my ass hurts! 

I like it spicy  

I was hella buzzing off two of these! 

Went to the thrift store next door for a bit and got to catch up with Angel, Izzy, Amelia, and Robert❤️ 

Can't Believe it's been a year!

Kacey's Polaroid pictures.

All money wads in my Scooby-Doo sweater

My favorite part of the night was getting cut off by the bartender when we weren't even fucked up yet!

Kristine helping me chug my wine before the concert  

This was my first time trying the Yellow Tail Sangria it was pretty good! 

Kacey and Penguin from Batman

Kacey's shirt is so crazy cause all four of us went to go see them together too❤️ 

Hanging out at Sara's❤️ →

All cozy watching Frasier🌃 

Star Wars for the first time!

I've had it on VHS for a while now, but for some reason or other haven't watched it yet. Kacey watched the new one last night and said it was "Bad ass"

Maritza wants to go see it Tuesday.

Puscifer - Fresno - December 5th

When we walked in Kacey was like, "Just come sit with us and if anyone tells you anything just move so I did and I just sat there the whole time!" I didn't drink as much as I thought I would but I had red red wine and I was feelin' lifted and gifted. We got all ignorant!

It's funny because a few days later we were going to Starbucks and were talking about the concert as a whole and we were laughing about how annoying we were being! I don't know what it is about being annoying in public that I love! We kept shouting "EL CHINGON!" "NO ERA PENAL" "MEXICO YA SE ARMO" and a bunch of other stupid shit. Apparently I bring the annoyingess out of Kacey lmfao!

Can't wait for our next concert together - TOOL January 6th in SF

I'm all excited to hang out with Kristine she says I have great comedic timing, and that I make her laugh harder than anyone she's ever met.<3

Today was an interesting day to say the least.

I've been so deep into thought that I feel like an asshole because I feel like I haven't been taking the time to really listen to the people out there in my life. I started feeling this way the last time I went to go visit my Tia Lupe who is now refusing to talk....I was like remembering when I was living there and the times that she tried to talk to me and the times I would not even pay attention to her and it made me feel guilty because now that I'm ready to listen it's not an option for me anymore. I miss her telling me stories of her growing up in Mexico and having to walk far to wash their clothes in the river and shit like that. I don't think I've had a great conversation with anyone in I don't even remember how long. I find myself getting to points where I'm having to come up with something to keep the conversation going. I was thinking of how I've just been a lazy ass for the last couple of years. I saw this young woman in the office and then I ended up seeing her again in my kindergarten class, it turns out she's possibly going to be the newest addition to the kindergarten staff should things work out for her which I hope they do. But her ambition has inspired something within myself. She said she'd just graduated from Fresno State, she started off at COS (like me, only I never continued) and now she's going to become a kindergarten teacher at the age of 23 (my age) because she was focusing on herself and what she really wanted to do. I can't wait for tomorrow, and another tomorrow because if I keep focusing on other shit my dreams won't come true. Lose myself in work and stop trying to please others. I have to learn that it's okay to be selfish sometimes. Wtf have I been waiting for like I feel like things are finally starting to fall into place for me I just have to keep pushing forward. 

-I hate when people come up to me and complain about Martha's like I only wait tables there you complaining is only making for an awkward situation for the both of us. One of my co-workers from the elementary school I work for complained about one of my best friends and I was in shock about it. I don't understand why people act that way towards him, I explained to her that it's impossible for him to overcharge her because it's all computers and we just type in exactly what you got. I asked if she received an itemized receipt and she said no. I suggested that she get one next time so she can see everything she's being charged for. Now it's awkward because all the aides are going in on Friday for a party - I'll be working but I still agreed to be a part of the secret santa and oddly enough the co-worker who approached me is the one I got.

Some customers are really cool.

Even though there are some customers that come in to Martha's and act like pretentious imps there's always those exceptional ones that make me really love people when I think I'm starting to become a misanthrope. There's this guy who always comes in and can be very sassy sometimes but in a funny way we started talking music and it turns out he's a big jazz fan; I showed him Astrud/Stan - he saaaaaaaays he likes it I hope he really does. I have a whole new appreciation for him as a person. He introduced me to this guy and I'm hella into it. I want to try and burn him the same cd [The mix CD Kaytie's ex 'Geo' made for me that introduced me to Astrud] or maybe even a better one with the music I've collected through thrifting and purchasing soundtracks via itunes. It's crazy because I feel like the people who surround you even though they care about you; are the first ones to say you won't be able to accomplish the shit you truly believe you are. I've been feeling really lucky when it comes to the people I've been waiting on there's this couple that comes in and always sits at the same table they're super friendly, courteous, and polite. When I wait on people that's all I'm really asking - at the end of the day, you knew you were going to come in here and have to talk to me...repeatedly....so we can talk about the things you want HELLO?! So why be rude or obnoxious to someone who's just at work trying to do their job if you didn't want to deal with a waitress, you could have ordered to go. Not that I always get rude customers but I hate that people think it's okay to be rude if they tip well. I can care less about your money if you ruin my day because you're trying to make me feel as low as you must feel on the inside to treat a stranger so rudely. Excuse me for venting but, I was hella offended the other day when these two older white people were being super offensive. I know they thought they were being funny but I didn't think it was. I almost cried about it but I was like nah I'm not gonna be a little bitch about it cause either way what the fuck do I care about these people to let them affect me so much. They were pretty much laughing at the fact that I can't hear in one of my ears, and when they left their tip they said it was for my, "Hearing aid fund". Oh, did I mention they also mimicked a deaf person trying to talk while fake signing? People are lucky I have so much restraint and patience. Anyways back to the point, these customers; people I barely know, make me feel more confident in my abilities and ideas than people I talk to on a daily basis. That couple I talked about earlier found out about my ambitions and ideas as far as this website and the husband told me someone he knew had recently passed away left him with four trailers worth of belongings, as they owned an antique store and had a lot of shit! He stated he didn't have the time or patience to look through everything but encouraged me to get business cards to pass out and put myself out there. Once I get business cards, he can contact me about various things he's found or I could go and take a look myself! Just when I start to lose hope for humanity and people looking out for each other, I meet people like this who encourage me to follow my dreams, because instead of putting me down they're believing in me as much as I do.

Astrud Gilberto & Stan Getz: The Girl From Ipanema- 1964

The first time I heard this song, my friend Kaytie that I met in my English 1 class, was talking to her boyfriend about me listening to The Temptations, and how I was gonna go see Smokey Robinson, so he took it upon himself to make me a mixed cd. It was awesome to say the least. It said something like "I know I don't know you but from what Kaytie tells me I think you'd like a lot of the music I put on here for you - Geo" I ended up giving it to Tyler...I kinda regret that but then I don't because I know Astrud was on there and now he says she's one of his favorite artists.